Adding a few more listings tonight… Good thing the management around here keeps me on track! Love these two.
Silence is golden,
Ignorance is bliss.
If that’s what it’s about,
I’ll give it a miss!
A poem by me, Morgan Sin!
I was compelled to write something today, just because. I could come up with reasons; I had energy, I felt creative, I want to post regularly again, I want to craft more; but mostly just because!
This blog has fallen silent for quite some time as some blogs often do. Nothing wrong with that. This has always been an outlet for my personal creative passions and sadly I’ve lacked the opportunities to make time for these things. I physically, mentally and emotionally crashed, like I do every few years, but this time I decided to find out why.
And find out I did! It’s been a journey, and I’m still on it. It hasn’t always been a happy one, but it has been a successful one and will continue to be! So what did I find out? I have ME/CFS (Myalgic Encephalopathy/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) fibromyalgia and Hashimoto’s hypothyroiditis. I’m a spoonie! Yay!
Why the hell would I be happy about this? Well I wasn’t. And I’m still rather not. But I have accepted these diagnoses now, and it all makes a hell of a lot of sense. I am happy that I am only mildly affected – sure there are days when I getting out of bed is just not going to happen, but I know it’s only going to be a few weeks or months and I’ll be on top of my world again.
Hindsight is a glorious thing. I apply what I know about myself now to every time I’ve been disappointed with myself is the past and every thing makes sense. Everything.
With finding out what is happening with me and accepting it, I’m now concentrating on learning about these illnesses and how to live with them. So between holding down my day job, resting and recovering, there isn’t much time left for crafting – yet. 😀
Something that has really struck me while learning and observing how other people cope with these illnesses is how it takes over their lives. I get it, I really do: the non-stop muscle pain, the fatigue that 40 hours of sleep doesn’t shake, all-consuming brain fog, every single annoying symptom that stops you doing what you know you can do. These symptoms, the confusion and lack of hard scientific evidence about the illnesses are more than enough to drive any one, let alone spoonies, to the point where living with these illnesses and others like it becomes and obsession.
I don’t want to be like that. And happily, thankfully, gratefully, I don’t have to be. I’m only mildly affected, and my heart goes out to those who suffer these illnesses more than I do.
Since finding out about my diagnoses six months ago and finally accepting them three weeks ago, I’ve done a lot of creative writing, soul-searching and researching in between working, resting and sleeping. Have I lost any friends over it? I don’t know yet. But I do know my life is changing, forever, and for the better.
Never fear though, this blog will remain! Eventually I’ll recover enough to craft again and start posting again. I might even start posting about food again – I haven’t done that on here in how long?! I hope that by recovering (from what I now know to be an ME relapse) and keeping this blog going, I can be one more person to show it is possible to live a happy life without being consumed by life-long chronic illness.
In closing, here’s a pic that pretty much sums up how I feel about all this. My Agave plants are some beautifully tough plants but should you happen leave them outside in a Melbourne hailstorm, they will get damage that takes months to heal – if they heal at all. Nonetheless, they will grow new and more beautiful leaves once in a safe place. That’s me, growing my new leaves in my new safe place!
Stay happy! 😀
I found myself catching a thought about this blog and how I’ve not added to it for some time. I was even contemplating closing it down.
I figured a few less things to do and worry about would be good for my soul. While I think the thinking is correct, surely removing this blog is not one of the right things to remove.
If I recall the reasons I started writing back in 2011 and the happiness it brought me over the following months, why then does it make sense to delete this little corner of the interwebs? What about the smiles it brought to those who read it, and according to my stats, still are reading it??
IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE.
Phew, I’m glad I got that sorted out.
I’m not sure when my next creative foray will come to be published here, time is fickle and energy sporadic.
I feel the need to return to the notion that my sewing and creative time is above all else, happy and relaxed therapy time. Not mending time, not favour time, not client time, not business development time.
Just ordinary, unobstructed creative free time so I can revive myself and get clarity for living the rest of my life. It’s not a luxury for me, it’s vital to remaining balanced in this crazy money-hungry middle-class.
Get inspired 😉
Smoke and fire.
Fridays, like any other day of the week, are great days for being Inspired!
But hold on, I hear you say, how can one be Inspired with Pants? Aren’t the best days those where pants are not in close proximity?
Well yes, I’d agree with you. But here we’re not necessarily wearing pants; we are sewing pants.
Tomorrow is the first day of a new month, which means a new Theme as per the feedback we gave ourselves. I haven’t sewn in nearly two months, so it’s time to get back to it. I’ve got a few Pants already cut, and have dreams about more.
Today, let’s look at those dreams:
Ok ok you got me… technically that’s a dream come true. But really, I LIVE in these pants. I love them so much. I’m making another pair for my mum so we can have the same pants.
But these Awesome Pants are the Inspiration for this week. Wide legged elastic waist pyjama style pants are just my thing, and in such a lovely fabric they make me comfy and happy at home, in the office, in the grocery store… wherever.
So more! More Inspiration of Wonderful Comfy Wide Legged Pants!
Clearly I’m also big on florals. I predict I’ll be wearing a lot of them this year, even if the rest of the world wore them ages ago… 😀
I didn’t mean to let the whole month of March slip by without a post or three! I have a good reason or two: I’m changing jobs and on an overseas holiday!
Mostly Sweetheart and I have been enjoying food and being with friends in Japan! Oh my goodness the food! Did I mention the food?
We’ve also done a bit of sightseeing and wandering the department stores. We decided our next trip to Japan might need to include a bit more shopping 😀
One thing I have always loved about Japan is the beauty in the details. I love getting in close to take some snaps here.
Right now we’re ending this trip in Tokyo then heading onto Malaysia and Singapore for some fabric and shoe shopping.
One more week until it’s back to reality. It’s bittersweet – at lwast when I get home I’ll be able to sew!
Stay inspired 🙂
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$96 – johnlewis.com
$10 – houseoffraser.co.uk
$580 – veryeickhoff.com
$32 – oasis-stores.com
$1,015 – astleyclarke.com
One year ago today I wrote my very first blog post. I had no expectations, only a keen desire to get out of an unhappy rut. Well I am by and large out of that rut and it’s been so much fun that this year I again have no expectations, but a keen desire to keep creating!
Thank you for reading and enjoying my blog this past year. Creating and designing things to share with you has been a great joy!
It’s been said that life is what happens while you’re making other plans, but in February it looks like life had other plans for me!
It’s been an odd few weeks. Sweetheart and I have been driving around the Eastern states catching up with friends and taking photos. That was fun. My dogs from my childhood years passed away recently, good old dogs they were. That was sad. And my career has taken an upswing that means I have some new skills to learn. That’s exciting!
All this means I haven’t had much time for making stuff. I’ve managed some drawings here and there and got some new yarn for the Star Anise Blanket, but have yet to catch the time to cut any new garments from the awesome fabric haul I had a few weeks ago. So for a little mid-week update, I’ll share a few drawings for the ideas I *would* have made for the Sew Weekly challenges these last few weeks:
First up, Red for Valentines. I already posted about my aborted plan for that, but this was the original idea: A sweetheart red velvet dress for dinner. There’s always next year!
Next up was the Oscars: Now a formal dress I don’t need at this point right now. What I do need is office wear. So what I thought was how about making the smart office dress the celebrity’s personal assistant would wear while hunting for the perfect celebrity dress? Yeah!
The next Sew Weekly theme was Refashion. Well, I’m working on a Refashion: Me. So most of my old clothes have been donated, and I need sharp stuff for the office. I’m sure I’ll get back to this one, but there are no sketches for it now.
This week is Art. I have been dreaming of a Mondrian inspired Composition dress for some time. I’m still working on the perfect sheath dress pattern to build it… this one is still going to take time…
Finally, next week is Green for St Patrick’s Day. I’ve got plans for a green dress for May, but since I’m sure this won’t be made next week I’ll share the sketch. As far as the explanation… well I’ll make you wait for that 😉
As always, I’m excited to get back I to it. Rest and relaxation is on the menu this weekend, and may be an update on my blankets!
Today marks six months since I started this blog, and I can’t believe how rewarding it has been! I’ve managed to stick with through my ups and downs, and it has been truly worth it. Today also means we’re six days into the new year already! 2012 is going to be a big year for Sweetheart and I and we’re so excited.
January has always been a time to relax and get organised for me, and this year will be no different. Here’s what I want to focus on this year:
- Finish the Star Anise and Blanket Scrabble blankets
When I first started these, I figured they would take me forever so I was quite happy to finish them over a few years. But lo! they are both progressing so finely I’m sure I’ll finish them in 2012.
- Get my sew on
2011 was a breakthrough year for me, finally getting my act together and overcoming a few sewing fears that were just plain silly. I want to continue that trend in 2012, and makeover my wardrobe with me-made items that actually fit! After following The Sew Weekly for the later part of last year, I think I’ll aim for 52 new items this year!
- Update my jewellery collection
It’s been a while since I’ve made any jewellery and I’ve found my taste have evolved with my birthdays, so this year I’d like to create more pieces I’ll wear in the coming years.
While accomplishing these, they’ll also involve lots of interesting sub-projects, like brushing up on my Japanese so I can create from a whole new world of patterns for sewing, crochet and beading, exploring my style in my favourite themes of tailored, tea parties and goth-y things, and getting better at modelling… (Sweetheart says the poses I choose always make me look awkward… hehehe).
Bring on 2012!!