My handmade store’s humble beginnings started in my much loved yard in the sun. With no office job at the moment, I needed something to keep me happy and crafting has always been it! Miss dreamed up one of my favourite first designs while having a nap…
Silence is golden,
Ignorance is bliss.
If that’s what it’s about,
I’ll give it a miss!
A poem by me, Morgan Sin!
I was compelled to write something today, just because. I could come up with reasons; I had energy, I felt creative, I want to post regularly again, I want to craft more; but mostly just because!
This blog has fallen silent for quite some time as some blogs often do. Nothing wrong with that. This has always been an outlet for my personal creative passions and sadly I’ve lacked the opportunities to make time for these things. I physically, mentally and emotionally crashed, like I do every few years, but this time I decided to find out why.
And find out I did! It’s been a journey, and I’m still on it. It hasn’t always been a happy one, but it has been a successful one and will continue to be! So what did I find out? I have ME/CFS (Myalgic Encephalopathy/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) fibromyalgia and Hashimoto’s hypothyroiditis. I’m a spoonie! Yay!
Why the hell would I be happy about this? Well I wasn’t. And I’m still rather not. But I have accepted these diagnoses now, and it all makes a hell of a lot of sense. I am happy that I am only mildly affected – sure there are days when I getting out of bed is just not going to happen, but I know it’s only going to be a few weeks or months and I’ll be on top of my world again.
Hindsight is a glorious thing. I apply what I know about myself now to every time I’ve been disappointed with myself is the past and every thing makes sense. Everything.
With finding out what is happening with me and accepting it, I’m now concentrating on learning about these illnesses and how to live with them. So between holding down my day job, resting and recovering, there isn’t much time left for crafting – yet. 😀
Something that has really struck me while learning and observing how other people cope with these illnesses is how it takes over their lives. I get it, I really do: the non-stop muscle pain, the fatigue that 40 hours of sleep doesn’t shake, all-consuming brain fog, every single annoying symptom that stops you doing what you know you can do. These symptoms, the confusion and lack of hard scientific evidence about the illnesses are more than enough to drive any one, let alone spoonies, to the point where living with these illnesses and others like it becomes and obsession.
I don’t want to be like that. And happily, thankfully, gratefully, I don’t have to be. I’m only mildly affected, and my heart goes out to those who suffer these illnesses more than I do.
Since finding out about my diagnoses six months ago and finally accepting them three weeks ago, I’ve done a lot of creative writing, soul-searching and researching in between working, resting and sleeping. Have I lost any friends over it? I don’t know yet. But I do know my life is changing, forever, and for the better.
Never fear though, this blog will remain! Eventually I’ll recover enough to craft again and start posting again. I might even start posting about food again – I haven’t done that on here in how long?! I hope that by recovering (from what I now know to be an ME relapse) and keeping this blog going, I can be one more person to show it is possible to live a happy life without being consumed by life-long chronic illness.
In closing, here’s a pic that pretty much sums up how I feel about all this. My Agave plants are some beautifully tough plants but should you happen leave them outside in a Melbourne hailstorm, they will get damage that takes months to heal – if they heal at all. Nonetheless, they will grow new and more beautiful leaves once in a safe place. That’s me, growing my new leaves in my new safe place!
Stay happy! 😀
Over a year ago now, just after we moved into our current place, the garden started blooming beautifully! While the days got nicer and the rains came, I ventured out with my camera and took photos of every flower I could find.
It’s interesting to look at these photos now and see what happened last year at this time compared to now. Some blooms have been and gone already and others not yet started. I think it’s been colder this spring than last year.
My blog is now two years old. Oh my!
While it has been much quieter on this front in the last few months, my creative exploits have seldom been far from my mind. Whether I’m wishing I had the energy to make something or working on something to post later, it’s still been a happy thought to think about writing here and sharing my fun with you.
The biggest block I’ve faced during my silence here is how to take photos! We’ve moved into a lovely house but I haven’t yet worked out how, where and when I’m to take pictures of the things I’ve finished. With other events in my life I regularly got distracted while trying to solve this dilemma.
Very soon I will have FIVE finished skirts to tell you about! When that happens, photos will need to be taken so I must figure it out!
In the meantime, here’s the only picture I took while in Singapore in April this year.
I’ve also been pottering in the garden a bit, removing weeds and thinking up grand designs for the wonderful flower and vegetable beds I’ll have. This garden has been fairly unkempt for three or fours years but it’s clear that at one point it was loved dearly. Among the overgrown shrubs I found these two:
I pretty sure the top one is white silverbeet and I suspect the other bottom one might be a chilli of some kind. Time will tell!
Stay calm 🙂
C’est la vie!
Still not home yet, but I’m finally letting myself slow down. I love holidays! But who doesn’t 😀
A few months ago now I felt the urge to sew, and whipped up a few skirts. This is one of them!
This was a remnant l picked at the local fabric department store, and l was thinking it would become a top.
It still might one day, this is a very simple skirt. But for now I have a lovely skirt to wear!
Last week I announced we had moved into our new home in Melbourne. We’re slowly settling in, and while doing so Felix and I made some time to go for a wander in our new garden.
I had said it was lovely. So lovely that it’s inspired me to take up gardening! Now I don’t consider my thumbs very green, and I’m already very busy with work and stuff. So my gardening will be small and my Garden Diary will be mostly pictures!
I haven’t started any gardening yet. But it’s early days – and I’d like to know where we started. So on that note, here is Morgan and Felix’s First Garden Tour!
Our home has a name! No doubt this house and garden was loved. And it still is! 😀
I love overgrown gardens…
Though I seem to have adopted a Shadow…
Patches of grass everywhere!
What is it? Nobody knows.
Magical views… there must be fairies here.
Don’t get to close on a first encounter with a fairy…
An empty bench! I see potential!
Ooh window boxes! More potential!!
An old old BBQ offers more potential!
Greenery in every crevice!
A bird house!
A fish pond!
A fountain! This place has everything.
A neglected gardening tool.
A secret bird bath!
Pretty. What is that in the background?
Wha? Let’s try some Investigative Gardening…
Aha! It was a veggie patch! Well then, methinks it will become a vegie patch again!
Can we go inside yet?
A perfect spot for some chairs…
A tree-bucket with a horseshoe? Investigative Gardening for another day.
A rouge gnome! An it’s unpainted!
We took well over 100 photos during our tour. Today I’ve shared my favourite features of our garden, and next week I’ll share variety of flowers we have!